Wednesday, February 18, 2009

PLEASE PRAY...OR MEDITATE...OR WHATEVER!

So I spoke too soon on my post this morning and I am so mad at myself I could just...ARRGGHHH!!! Seems I missed a document for our dossier that had to be redone. Due to various reasons, I have until 10:00 AM on Friday to get it notarized, apostilled and in the hands of our agency rep...or we are 1-2 months from having it submitted to the Embassy.

I don't usually ask for prayer on this blog, but guys, I need you! The apostilling is a 10 hour round trip from Denver...and we have weather here and have to go over the mountains to accomplish this which means an even longer trip probably. Then we have to pray thet FedEx actually CAN get it in the hands of our agency by that time in the morning, or we are a cooked goose.

I know, what's another couple of months??? For the girls, it could be huge...closer to school start time means we need to make decisions about keeping them out of school until functional language is acquired then starting them later in the year as the obvious "new kid", it means less time for me to be home with them full time working on adjustment stuff, it means Dominick has to leave during his peak work time when money is already incredibly tight...so many factors riding on this.

So please, if you are reading this...just ask that God do this in the right time, even if I don't recognize what that may be. We are going to do our best to make up for my incredibly STUPID error, and if it doesn't work it is all my fault. All these years and I have never done something like this, so I guess if I am in the mood to forgive myself I could say I was "due". I am not, however, in the mood to forgive myself at the moment.

To top it off, I had 2 hours to deal with planning this, getting the document notarized by both of us, a new translation done and figuring out work schedules for tomorrow before we have to head off to a snoeshowing trip with Cub Scouts.

Breathe deeply...breathe deeply... in...out...

Man, I still can't believe I did this.

9 comments:

Shannon said...

Oh Cindy, I can feel that knot in your stomach. We've all made mistakes or overlooked what we think would be the obvious. However, as you know, when it comes to the mountains of adoption paperwork, things like this can happen. I just KNOW you will make it by Friday! We'll be praying for a break in the weather and a speedy FedEx trip! Hopefully things will all fall into place and this can be just one more story you share with your girls.

Maureen said...

How heart breaking. I hope that you are able to forgive yourself (it's a hard thing to do). You are in my prayers.

Barb and Ken said...

Cindy, I'm praying.
Barb

Anonymous said...

WE WILL PRAY!

Peggy in Virginia

Lenore Ryan said...

Oh Cindy!!! You are in our thoughts and prayers!!!!!

Matt and Pam Bean said...

Oh, the prayers are coming tonight!!! You got it girl. Have faith in the Lord.

Michelle said...

what happened...did they make it?!

Kelly and Sne said...

Wonderful news that you are one step closer. IT feels so good just to make progress! Especially when you spend the other half of the time dealing with two steps back! And thanks for blogging. I know that when I started down this path for the first time late 2007 I soaked up everybody's blog I could find just to get an idea of what to expect - good and bad. Now I blog and hope that I can provide that same "reference point" to others - and I continue to follow others journeys to offer them support from a special place of understanding as well as to share a bit of this long journey of adoption and then parenting the child who was adopted.

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