Lest anyone be under the mistaken impression that my life is picture perfect, let me spend a moment dissuading you of that notion.
Today was one of those days filled with frustration. Usually, I feel pretty good about our homeschooling, then there are days like today when it feels like I simply can't do it. Nothing is sinking in. To add to our Kenny issues the past couple of weeks, which thankfully seem to be subsiding, we have Zone Out Sisters!! Hahaha! I can laugh now, a few hours later, but MAN was it a struggle today!!
I know they are learning language, I know that a word has to be said about 15 times to be cemented, but I swear there was a conspiracy today to make mom bald from pulling her hair out! Lately Dominick and I have noticed we are repeating ourselves over and over and over and over and over and over and over again (getting the idea of how crazy this is making me???). I know at times their brains just shut off, having had enough, but it is not just the girls or Kenny, and it just seems I am on overload with repeating myself and re-explaining things I just explained literally 12 seconds ago, or being asked questions that we already know the answer to, and I just realized this is an incredible run on sentence so I too must need to turn off my brain!
SEE WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO ME????????
Ahhhh, so then I leave this evening feeling a level of frustration that has not been experienced in quite awhile, and have to attend a Board of Stewards meeting for our homeschool program, and end up not getting home until 11:30 PM after a meeting that went on and on and on and on and on and on while I hacked and hacked and hacked still fighting this cough.
I get home and the house is a wreck, for some reason every person in my home other than me has a penchant for leaving cupboard doors flung open, I step painfully on a dog chew stick and my bedroom is colder than Antarctica because my hubby loves to sleep in a meat locker, all the while snoring like the proverbial freight train and then complaining because my light is on and I am not sleeping because I CAN'T sleep with all that racket at 2500 decibles within 6 inches of my head.
There still is a ton of homework for me to do before class Saturday as I have not been able to fully focus on it as I should have, so I am stuck trying to read a 350 page book on Christian history without benefit of earplugs to block out the intense snoring, so what am I doing? I am sitting here blogging. Makes no sense, I know, but what can I say...nothing today has made much sense.
I wouldn't trade any of it, I know that. I also know that one day I will look back on these days and miss them terribly, wishing that for even just a few moments I could step back in time to the days we are living right now when our kids are young, our life is sweet and all will appear in a gauzy haze of orange sherbet like glow of delight.
Tonight though, it is more like an image I shared with someone yesterday...a pile of muddy gray Play Dough created from mushing together that neon green, Barbie pink, and Bob the Builder Blue. Nothing attractive at all about it as Matthew spilled iced tea on our carpet yesterday and the Stupid Dog (Mom's official name for that creature...who IS awfully cute but is not the brightest bulb of a dog I've ever met) decided to leave a deposit on the same aforementioned carpet, not far from the tea stain. Hmmm...maybe that is a a good thing, we can say it was the spilled tea.
So it is 12:45 AM, I am off to read a bit more and to look forward to a brighter day tomorrow when, perhaps, the Zone Out Girls will pull it together, Mr. I Am In Charge will decide he is an 11 year old child and listen to the adults in his life, Mr. Tea Tipper will find a more graceful way to drink, Josh the Mosh Pit expert will not leave his super hero costumes strewn from one end of the house to the other, and The Big Engine That Could next to me will find a position to sleep in that quiets the whistle, even if only for an hour, that will allow me to drift off into blissful slumber.
This has to be the stupidest post I have ever written. That's OK, today was sort of an intellectually challenging day anyway!